Dear Reader,
Maybe you were a regular reader, or someone who just stumbled upon my blog, who ever you are, where ever you are, I appreciate you. Though I have decided to discontinue my blog, Stephanie's Epiphanies, I will still be writing somewhere. So, be on the look out for me. Thank you for giving me the non returnable gift of your time. Take care.
Yours in Writing,
Stephanie
Sunday, January 14, 2018
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
Why the Dove Ad Matters
The water
washed over me as I stood in the shower and flashbacked to my childhood. I
remember being bathed, greased down and shined up like a new penny before
making any public appearances. Like many Black mothers, my mother was obsessed
with cleanliness. Everything had to be in
order—hair, face, clothes. We learned young that the holiness of hygiene reflected
our humanity.
The prickle
from the hot water reminded me of why the Dove debacle enraged so many. It
was not so much anger as it was pain from
being burned--again. This age-old wound that has never fully healed has been sliced
wide open with a salted knife, and we are wincing from the pulsing pain of our
wounded self.
As Black
women we carry this pain and pass it off to our children as pride. We admonish
them for being less than clean in any way. We warn our daughters that they’ll
never get a man if they keep a nasty house. We warn our sons against having a
dirty car. We shower at night before going to bed and in the morning before going to work. We do everything we can to
keep the dirt at bay. After sex, we wash the sin away. We clean the house before the house keeper
arrives. We believe those who say we can never be clean enough, but can we ever really be clean enough?
This is not about
Dove;
it’s about what Dove represents; it’s about racism and the history of an
industry that uses stereotypes of African-Americans to sell an array of
products. The idea of cleanliness and
Black people speaks to who we are in this country especially as Black women
because we are never expected to measure
up to white women.
We’re not
simply trying to meet the purity
of whiteness we’re trying to exceed it. We turn our noses up at white women in
the restroom who simply run their hands under the running water or don’t wash
their hands at all. We like having the upper hand in something as benign as
hygiene. Our dignity hangs on it. Our lives depend on it.
The
situation with Dove is two-fold for me: it’s about America’s continued fetish
of blackness and the consequences for us which can sometime be deadly. The
Parent company for Dove is Unilever. Unilver makes Pear
soap which has a history of some of the most racist soap ads ever made. Ads
that equate whiteness with goodness. Ads that say their soap can wash away
blackness.
“I’ll knock the black off you,” was uttered by
people who looked like me. As I think
back now, that reference alluded to dirt. I never heard anyone say they’d knock
the brown or the white off anyone. Our obsession with cleanliness goes beyond
simply soap. We want to make sure that we smell “fresh” at all times. The idea
of being a smelly Black woman brings a sense of shame and embarrassment.
We spend billions
of dollars spend on products that make us look good, smell good and feel good,
but some of these products are also harmful to our health. Even when doctors
advised women to stop douching, I know women who felt that there weren’t clean
if they didn’t. We have sprayed, squirted, and sprinkled our way into harm’s
way. Products like baby powder have cost some of us our lives.
In an
article, Profiting From the Myths About
Black Women’s Bodies, on time.com Omise’eke
Natasha Tinsley, an associate professor at the University of Texas at Austin
writes, about Black women’s hygiene. She explains our need to douche and
deodorize and the deadly consequences associated with cultural norms around
cleanliness.
It was discovered
through internal documents at the trial of a woman who died from ovarian
cancer, that Johnson & Johnson continued to market its product to women of
color after white women stopped using their baby powder because of its possible
connection to ovarian cancer. Though a direct correlation between talc and
cancer is mixed some reports say there’s a direction connection between talc
and cancer, some say there is not, there are juries ruling in favor of women
who claim to have contracted cancer from using these products.
The family
of Jacqueline Fox won a $72 million dollar lawsuit against Johnson &
Johnson after Fox died from advanced ovarian cancer after being diagnosed in
2013. Fox, like countless other Black women sprinkled baby power containing
talcum in her panties to stay “fresh.” Fox used baby powder and Shower to Shower as part of her feminine
hygiene routine for 35 years according to an article in the Washington
Post.
In August of
this year, a Los Angeles jury awarded 63
year-old Eva Echeverria, of East Los Angeles
417 million dollars in damages according to an article by Roni Caryn Robin in The
New York, These women are only two of 1,200 women suing Johnson &
Johnson for failing to warn them of the cancer risk associated with talcum-based
products.
Black women
are dying to be seen as clean in a society that sees us as nasty, dirty and
worthless. Dove reminded of us how hard it is to wash away those feelings
of inferiority. I reached for my towel, stepped out of the shower and wondered
what it takes to be clean enough to be worthy.
Sunday, September 24, 2017
Vacation
Hello Readers,
Stephaniesepiphanies is on blogacation and will return in October. See you then. Thanks for stopping by.
Stephaniesepiphanies is on blogacation and will return in October. See you then. Thanks for stopping by.
Wednesday, September 6, 2017
Whose Streets?
Whose
Streets?
An ad for a
movie about the protests in Ferguson kept popping up in my feed. So, I clicked
on it and found out that there was a documentary on the social unrest in
Ferguson following the killing of Michael Brown. The documentary, Whose Streets?, was playing at a theater
near me.
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Whose Streets? Did what Detroit did not. Whose
Streets? put a face on the struggle for basic human rights in this country.
While Detroit was a docudrama set in the 60s around the
events at the Algiers Motel, Whose
Streets? Is set in the present day. Both provide an unflinching look at
police brutality and we see that not much—if anything—has changed over the last
50 years.
Detroit’s brutalization of Black bodies is void
of humanity. We see them beaten and killed. There is no justice for the
families. The end. Detroit focuses on
the victims. They are nothing more than
bruised and battered bodies some of which are discarded with the ease of
throwing out the trash. They don’t exist outside of the hotel.
Whose Streets? Is told from the perspective of the
protesters. We not only get to see them taking to the streets, we also get to
go behind the scenes. We are invited into their homes. We see them having
breakfast, talking about homework. We see them as people fighting for justice
while still living day to day.
Detroit is
about helplessness in the face of tragedy; Whose Streets? Is about hope. I’ll
take hope over helplessness any day.
Saturday, August 19, 2017
Detroit: Black Pain in Living Color
I am a movie connoisseur. I’ll watch movies
in any genre except horror, and now because real life is so filled with violent
images, I stay away from movies with extreme violence. I watch movies for
enjoyment but also for knowledge. Even movies that are purely entertainment
contain life lessons. This is a three-part series on movies I’ve seen recently.
They are part movie review, part social commentary. Do you agree or disagree
with my views? What movies have made an impact on you? I’d love to hear your
thoughts in the comment section. As always, thanks for reading.
There was a chorus of discontent
around the docudrama, Detroit by the
Academy-Award winning director, Kathryn Bigelow when it opened. Black folks had
issues with a white director and missing Black women. Some call it a horror film,
and someone I know left the theater before the movie ended. I decided to see it
anyway and form my own opinion. I refused to read any articles or movie
reviews because I didn’t want to be influenced by the thoughts of others.
I had seen Bigelow’s Hurt Locker, and thought it was
excellent. So, I knew that the movie wouldn’t sugarcoat what happened at the
Algiers Motel in July of 1967. Civil unrest plagued the city. There was
rioting, looting and snipers taking shots at the police and National Guard who
were charged with restoring order.
It was the 60s and racial tensions
were at an all-time high. Some young Black people were partying at the hotel and
amongst them were two white women. When shots rang out, Detroit police officers
thought it was a sniper and rounded up everybody. The sadistic officers were determined
to coerce a confession out of the party goers by any means necessary.
It was unflinching unrest and
brutality in your face. The only things filling the screen were looting and
rioting, burning buildings and brutalized bodies. I was exhausted before the
movie ended and was ready for it to be over. It was literally black and white. No
slices of life. We got our asses beat and killed. No justice. The End.
The violence against Black bodies
was so unrelenting that by the end I was numb. The movie focuses primarily on
what happened at the hotel and the trial after. So, all the characters are
flat. They are not complex human beings with lives beyond the walls they find
themselves trapped behind. The characters are victims which leaves little room
for understanding and/or empathy. It's a voyeuristic look at Black pain.
Though we live in the spaces of oppression,
we are more than our bruised and battered bodies. We are more than chalk
outlines on the ground. There is ecstasy in our agony and pleasure in our pain.
Watching the unrelenting brutality of the police officers was too much. After
about 90 minutes I had nothing left in me to feel for characters not because I
didn’t want to, but because I couldn’t afford to. Disconnecting became an act
of self preservation because the movie is 2’22” minutes long and it mirrors
what is happening today.
Things happen to us as a result of
racism and discrimination. But it is not the sum of our existence. The Soul of
Black people is missing from this film. In the midst of our trauma we live. We
love. We laugh. We’re not hiding in the shadows; we’re moving toward the light.
Why I Liked Girls Trip
I am a movie connoisseur. I’ll watch movies
in any genre except horror, and now because real life is so filled with violent
images, I stay away from movies with extreme violence. I watch movies for
enjoyment but also for knowledge. Even movies that are purely entertainment
contain life lessons. This is a three-part series on movies I’ve seen recently.
They are part movie review, part social commentary. Do you agree or disagree
with my views? What movies have made an impact on you? I’d love to hear your
thoughts in the comment section. As always, thanks for reading.
One of my friends expressed surprise
that I wanted to see Girls Trip. She
knows that I like documentaries, dramas and docudramas especially about Black
history which is American history.
Because I am a strong proponent for social justice and equity, people assume
that I’m serious all the time. They don't really know me; I do have a silly
side. Being in Fight the Power mode all the time is exhausting. When I have to
get out of my head, one of my primary ways of escape is movies.
I like comedy, and I love raunchy
(but not vulgar) comedies. From everything I saw in the previews, Girls
Trip was the prescription I needed. It was raunchy. It had actors I
like and they looked like me. It was a win all the way around. So, I went to
see Girls
Trip—twice. And I enjoyed it each time. And I’m not alone. Since
opening, Girls Trip has made 100 million dollars—the first comedy of 2017 to
make that much money. This is phenomenal considering that comedies haven’t done
well this year.
Is it cinematic greatness? No. It
didn’t have to be. It needed to be fun, and it was! It is a story of friendship,
and it is a story of love. Friends since college, Ryan, Sasha, Lisa and Dina
reconnect after a five-year gap and take a trip to New Orleans for the annual Essence music festival. A trip that is
supposed to solidify Ryan’s brand and rekindle old friendships, is fraught with
mayhem when it’s discovered that Ryan’s husband is cheating and Sasha has the
incriminating photos as proof of his infidelity.
Loyalties are tested. Feelings are
hurt. Battles are lost—and won. But in the end friendship wins. And love wins.
Sounds corny right? But who doesn’t love a happy ending? With the tension and hostility
poisoning the atmosphere in the world today, I needed a feel-good story. And it had some good eye candy, too. So, I
sat back, relaxed and had a good time. Everything worked. I laughed and I
learned these five things:
- Know your worth. It's not your social economic status. It’s not your material possessions. It’s not the letters behind your names. It’s who you are where you right now and knowing that, that is enough.
- Decide what "all" is to you. A spouse, a house and 2.5 kids is not everyone's dream. There is nothing wrong with being married and having children, if that’ what you want. But you have to know what you want and go after it. Success is falling down and getting back up again. You can have it all once you decide what all is for you? Writing a novel? Traveling the world? Opening a restaurant or just living a simple life that brings you unbridled joy? Don’t allow someone else to define your success.
- Know you tribe. We all need a tribe of women who holds us up, but also keeps us grounded. The women we can share deep belly laughs, cry our eyes out and hold secrets like the fat inside a waist clincher. Dina, Ryan, Lisa and Sasha were there for each other even when they had issues between them. Who are the women who are there for you? Are you there for them?
- Find balance. Work hard, but not so hard that there is no time to play. Take time away from the duties and responsibilities of life and just be. Make space for family, friends, spouses, but also make space for self.
- It's all love. That what it’s all about in the end: the capacity to love and be loved. And not just romantic love, but love in all its manifestations. Love is too big to be contained.
Wednesday, July 26, 2017
Living in My Skin - Part 3
As a Black woman in a racist,
sexist environment living in my skin has been burdensome this lately. It feels
heavy and hot like I am walking around on a 90 degree day wearing a fur coat; I
am suffocating. The mistreatment of us disturbs me. In light of things happening
recently, I had to contemplate what it means to live in my skin. I went back
into my archives and found pieces I had written about sexual abuse in the Black
community. The articles go back to 2009
but the issues are constant. Much of what I’ve written has remained the same. I
only updated where I thought necessary. It is my goal to disrupt the dominant
narrative that exists in our society around the devaluation of Black women and
girls. We are not promiscuous gold diggers using our bodies as currency to get
ahead. We are not “fast” “hot” “sassy” “thots” “hoes “or any of the other
derogative terms used to dismiss us as sexual beings and make us sexual
objects. We are not perfect. Like everyone else, we make mistakes. And like everyone else, we deserve to be
treated with respect and dignity. We deserve to be valued. We are, after all worthy
human beings, too. This a three-part essay series. I will publish a new essay
every day for the next three days. Please feel free to comment on any of the
essays that resonate with you. Thank you for reading and sharing your most
valuable commodity—time—with me.
ESSAY #3 – TODAY
In light of the R. Kelly cult
allegations, I'm going to share a personal story that I've never shared publicly
before. For years I was ashamed at my response to the situation because of the message I received growing up.
There were certain expectations to be upheld, and you did not do anything to embarrass yourself your family and your race. And then there was gender. There were good girls and bad girls. I was good and that meant that if I followed the rules, nothing bad would happen.
It’s mind boggling how much of the responsibility to remain safe is put on the backs of girls. We are told that boys will be boys, and we learn early not to do anything that will make a boy be a boy. It is only as I have grown that I’ve learned how dangerous this type of thinking is. This is a disservice to both girls and boys. Girls cannot control the action of boys, and it’s hell on earth when boy and men are not responsible for their own actions.
If boys will be boys is always the answer when boys (or men) do harm, then who is there to protect girls (and women)?
There were certain expectations to be upheld, and you did not do anything to embarrass yourself your family and your race. And then there was gender. There were good girls and bad girls. I was good and that meant that if I followed the rules, nothing bad would happen.
It’s mind boggling how much of the responsibility to remain safe is put on the backs of girls. We are told that boys will be boys, and we learn early not to do anything that will make a boy be a boy. It is only as I have grown that I’ve learned how dangerous this type of thinking is. This is a disservice to both girls and boys. Girls cannot control the action of boys, and it’s hell on earth when boy and men are not responsible for their own actions.
If boys will be boys is always the answer when boys (or men) do harm, then who is there to protect girls (and women)?
What seems like eons ago, I went to
visit my friend in Atlanta. She is 12 years older, and at the time she bartended
on the weekend. I was in my early 20s, so people in their 30s or beyond seemed
old. So, my friend asked a guy friend of hers (he was older than me, but younger
than her) to take me somewhere with a younger crowd. He said he had to go home and change his shirt. The club where we were going had a dress code. Men
had to have shirts with collars. He was wearing a t-shirt.
Me? I was dressed to go out. I had on a form-fitting black dress with the shoulders out—much like the current trend in ladies tops and dressed. I had on black high-heeled pumps and my hair was on point. I looked good if I have to say so myself.
Me? I was dressed to go out. I had on a form-fitting black dress with the shoulders out—much like the current trend in ladies tops and dressed. I had on black high-heeled pumps and my hair was on point. I looked good if I have to say so myself.
Riding in the car talking, out of
nowhere he says, “How do you know I won't
rape you? There is a baby-past the due date pregnant pause in the car as I gather
my thoughts.
“Cause I lift weights,” I reply.
“You bi sexual?”
“Sometimes.”
I can't say I even understood what
bi sexual means or why I say it. My sexual experience is very limited. It sounds silly as I think back.
“You just a shit talker from Chicago.”
We laugh and continue driving. I
push How you know I won't rape you?
down in my mind. My friend knows him. She wouldn't let me go out with a rapist. Would she?
This is the time before cell phones.
I don’t know the name of the club where she works nor do I know her phone
number to the club. We get to the house. I don't even think to just stay in the
car. I'm safe . . I think.
We go in. He asks if I want to come
in the back while he irons his shirt. I decline and sit on the couch in the living room. A few
minutes later, a key turns in the front door and three men walk in. They look
at me and me at them. We exchange hellos and they go into the back.
How you know I won't rape you? plays on repeat in my mind and I cannot move. My heart
thumps loudly in my ears. I hear my date saying that he and I are going to a
club. How you know I won't rape you? When faced with fear the fight, flee or freeze
reaction seizes me. And I am frozen where I sit. They talk for a couple of minutes
and then they leave. He and I leave and go to the club. We have a decent time,
but I don't forget his words. They hang in the air.
Only by the Grace of God did I not
end up raped and or murdered. I trusted my friend but she couldn't vouch for
this man's character. How well did she know him? Had something horrible
happened to me, fingers would have pointed at me. I would have been judged for
what I was wearing. Judged for being out with a man I didn’t know. Judged for
being young and naïve. Judged for being a young Black woman.
I'm reminded of incidents over the
years with girls and women whose story had a different ending. There was the young woman who shared her story in a workshop. She was standing on the bus stop and a guy she knew pulled up and asked her where she was going. He said he'd drop her off, but he had a stop to make first. When they arrived, she said she'd stay in the car. He said it was too cold for her to sit in the car, she went in with him. There was a group of men waiting in the apartment. She said about 10 guys took turns raping her. At some point, she said it was as if her spirit left her body and watched the horror happening to her.
There is the young woman who came to talk to my students about rape. She was a survivor and was willing to tell her story. My students sat in silence as she relayed not 1, not 2, but three instances of acquaintance rape, and each time she blamed herself. There was the mother of one of my students who was raped twice. She believes that if you don't get the help you need when you are sexually abused, you open up the door for it to happen again. When she was seven, she was raped by her friends' brother. She said she didn't have words to explain this man's penis inside her. She didn't tell. One day, she and the girls--his sisters were playing--and one of them said, "Tell him you got your period." The next time he came for her, that's what she said and he never bothered her again. He was a predator. His sisters, and their friends and God only knows who else were his victims.
I don't share these stories to for shock value. I share these stories because I want you to know what Black women and girls are up against in this world.
There is the young woman who came to talk to my students about rape. She was a survivor and was willing to tell her story. My students sat in silence as she relayed not 1, not 2, but three instances of acquaintance rape, and each time she blamed herself. There was the mother of one of my students who was raped twice. She believes that if you don't get the help you need when you are sexually abused, you open up the door for it to happen again. When she was seven, she was raped by her friends' brother. She said she didn't have words to explain this man's penis inside her. She didn't tell. One day, she and the girls--his sisters were playing--and one of them said, "Tell him you got your period." The next time he came for her, that's what she said and he never bothered her again. He was a predator. His sisters, and their friends and God only knows who else were his victims.
I don't share these stories to for shock value. I share these stories because I want you to know what Black women and girls are up against in this world.
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